December 25, 2012

It is hard to adequately state how awful it is not to have my dad her for Christmas. He is Christmas. I like the table mats and cedar logs my mom got us but it doesn't feel like Christmas at all, just she and I, hummus for dinner. I watched a bunch of Christmas love movies last night & tried to keep the pain at bay. I can't stand near the pain of losing him right now, I just have to pretend this is just some other random day.